always in love

Man, I wish that I could have gotten up last night and written down the conversation we had. I realized that we are not on the same page when it come to our spiritual goals. He thinks when it comes to sex, he loves me and we should just be together. Thing is, I dont believe he loves me and I really dont believe I love him anymore.

And then I had the weirdest dream. I was arguing with my ex and his wife. And the pain I felt over him was excruciating-screaming without sound. It was gut-wrenching. It dropped me to my knees. He didnt understand why I told his wife about us. I had no voice. I was lost