Late Night Confessions

I guess its not so late round these parts but with the sun down and the hubby off to bed it appears to be late night at this end of town.

Kids still struggle with going to bed this early. We are all night owls and come by it quite honestly. Hubby is the only early bird naturally even without the job.

So on with the confession (its dark. That's all that counts)......I made mention earlier that a family member had passed away. And he is so young to lose his life, despite the constant tragedy he faces day after day. BUT it turns out he did not pass away. Yep, you heard me. It was all an elaborate hoax for attention.

Now we certainly could be thankful that he didn't try to kill himself or that he didn't meet with some violent fate. Somehow I don't think my family really sees it from that perspective though. They're just pissed. And to be quite honest so was I for about ten seconds. (Literally)

1. Because I had stayed up all night. And I was dead beat come morn. However, I did get the notion and vision to start back up on this series, so total bonus. Turns out I have a lil popularity.

2. Because like I said, I was terribly reminded that death lurks and plots and plans. That's the devil AND life for you. Its inevitable. I HATE being reminded.

But you know its a tug of war between my flesh and my soul. My flesh wants to stay to see the outcome of my childrens lives. My spirit knows the true reward is in heaven and it will not compare to here. But that's WAY to big for me to understand.

I pray for this guy. I pray hard. Because the other truth is...I've been there and I can remember how over my own pain I acted out selfishly. Its a tough place to be but we don't have to stay there for long and with Gods grace we can choose not to.
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