Chuck

Chuck died today. It kinda sucks. He was given six weeks but he just didnt make it. I couldnt sleep at all last night either. I was so emotional. I kept thinking what if you leave this earth and havent fulfilled your purpose. And then what if you dont know you are fulling your purpose and when its done its time to go. I know I would miss my children immensely. I cant even fathom how much it would hurt into the spiritual world missing my children.

I was very emotional. And I cried and stayed up WAY to late. Chuck was an arnry old man but that was is charm. And my mom is sad because she considered him to be a good friend. And he thought enough of her and us to loan us the money. It breaks my heart to know hes gone. To not see him sitting in his chair, smoking on his cigarette outside his apt when we walk up to my moms. But I know how God is and so I am not worried. We'll miss you Chuck.