The Fire Within

This is a tough one tonight. I realize for the first time that my dad is not the only one who has contributed to the anger that runs in the veins of this family. It is the catalyst for it all but as its been the topic of discussion for the last two nights I also think my mom has kept the fires burning.

I know she wouldnt want to hear this and she may even be super mad at me, but i realize that as she holds on to the anger, she makes no room for her kids to let go. 

Now dont get me wrong...my mom was a good mom and worked way too hard in my opinion. But she raised some pretty wonderful kids. I just think theres a lot that could have been avoided.But what do I know. But the other two need room to make amends and find thier own peace.

I dont share the same opinions or views as my mom and its been a source of tension among us for as long as i know. Shes too old i think to still be holding on to it, to still be so angry.  It eats away at her. She has no need for all that. Thats why I cant stand anger. It so consuming.