Vision

From the very beginning God spoke about vision:

[ God's Covenant With Abram ] After this, the word of the LORD came to Abram in a vision: "Do not be afraid, Abram. I am your shield, your very great reward." Genesis 15:1

You know a girlfriend of mine the other day found out I was a stay at home mom. She said she was so jealous. in a playful way....she had me laughing days later when she sent me a text asking for my email address so she could send me job openings! Haha. That was a good one.

I admit, I thought I havent had much vision lately on where it is I want to be or what I should be doing in my life and it has caused me some amount of worry that people will be a bit "concerned" if they knew that I don't have a 9-5 and all the daily stresses of needing to be up before the sun and home after it goes down.


And after countless tries at imaging myself waking up in the morning, getting in my car and driving to the dream job, I realize today that I am exactly where I want to be. Well, minus the neighborhood and this apt. I mean I'd really rather be doing "all this" in a home down by the beach :)

• But I am working on achieving a degree I didnt think was so important when I was 18. And I'm doing it better then I would have done it at 18. And I know I have to continue to dedicate time and energy to that goal.
• I am raising two beautiful babies during the week who just started school and learning alot more about patience and guidance.
• And I am maintaining a wonderful relationship with my pre-teen who stays with her grandparents 30 miles away during the week so she can continue to succeed in school.

I am able to come and go as I please (at Gods will of course) and I work hard to maintain a wonderful marriage, something I do not feel guilty about (another story). I need to learn to go a bit easier on myself and enjoy the life and freedom I have as it stands before the next chapter in my life. My vision I realize does not have to be what I think others believe it ought to be. It just has to be mine and I just have to keep at it every day and thank God for grace (shield) and love (reward) he gives me through each moment.