Being present minded is a very difficulty task sometimes. When there are things like great kisses and lost loves and your first car and your first job and your first child and so on and so on.
i miss "him" no doubt. And he knocked me for a loop by being affected by the news. I guess i thought he might handle it better. i can only assume so much though about what he feels. So I think this may be my overactive imagination. Or it may not be. But I dont know because he doesnt talk to me. Yea, we speak to each other but to actually go back and forth in conversation about this never happens. but he doesnt realize he speaks volumes in one small text then he ever could in an email.
I am moving forward and staying in the present. Trust me, I will chalk yesterday up to grieving. But its done. I ate a cheesy pancake this morning in honor and so its done. I will miss you. I sure did love you.
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